““I will love you forever; whatever happens. Till I die and after I die, and when I find my way out of the land of the dead, I’ll drift about forever, all my atoms, till I find you again…””
These two amazing humans are my favorites in the whole wide world. I don't know what I would do without them… (most likely take a nap). They brighten my day even when I can't imagine my day brighter. They are my everything...
Press play, life is better with a soundtrack
““He stepped down, trying not to look long at her, as if she were the sun, yet he saw her, like the sun, even without looking.””
Another year gone and done with. Time is moving by so freakin’ fast lately. I would give anything to make it slow down. I have been trying lately to really slow myself down once in a while. To not care as much about the dishes in the sink and crap piling up everywhere. Its hard. Its hard work to let your mind rest. I have about 1 million thoughts a second. There is so much I want to do and at the same time do absolutely nothing. This coming year, I want to be more careful with my words, especially with criticism. I want to listen to what I m going to say with intention, with kindness. And I want to be more understanding. And I could also be more generous with my time and with myself while I am at it!
Some other goals for 2016: print my photos, stay up to date with editing (I am currently 2 years behind on personal projects and that freaks my over controlling self out), do more storytelling sessions and improve my skill. I would also love to travel more and see this amazing planet we call home.
Cheers to a year of learning and growing!
Idena
You know what absolutely blows my mind sometimes? The fact that not too long ago it was our grandparents that were teaching us about the world. They still do, don’t get me wrong. There is a river of knowledge and wisdom and calmness that only old age gives you. But really, think about it. Everything is flipped now. It is the younger generation teaching the older one about how to log in, log out, stay connected, set up accounts, order online. I grew up in a time that allowed me to keep pace and I still feel left behind sometimes. As much as i try limiting screen time for Enso he still manages to amaze me with how much he knows and how fast he catches on.What a crazy crazy time we live in...
““Odors have a power of persuasion stronger than that of words, appearances, emotions, or will. The persuasive power of an odor cannot be fended off, it enters into us like breath into our lungs, it fills us up, imbues us totally. There is no remedy for it.”
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Seeing home after being gone for so long is emotional. Its hard work.
It makes me cry every single time. The air smells a certain way there. In winter time, it’s a mix of potato stew and burnt Christmas trees. Everything is so familiar and friendly yet so different and distant. There is a unmeasurable joy in my heart to find the things and people that I love still there. The things that are unchanged. The things that did change I find frustrating. Its almost like someone came into my home and re arranged my cupboards and now I cant find my favorite coffee mug. Every time I go back something else changes. Little by little the place that was once so familiar to me is now a mystery.The air smells the same. That smell is where all my memories dance together. Smell and taste are really the most comforting of senses. When you miss something dearly, like I miss home sometimes, you can smell it. You can taste it. That never changes.
I smell my morning walk to school sometimes. I have several different days in memory that I rotate according to season. The one I am most fond of, is a late fall day. The air is fresh and cold and it smells like piles of burned leaves on the side of the road. I can see my breath so I borrow my nose deeper in my scarf. I close my eyes and take a deep warm breath...
Clearly, home is where your nose tells you it is.
